You can be addicted to a certain kind of sadness.

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My phone was sitting on my bedside table when it lit up and started vibrating; I quickly looked at the caller ID and sighed when it came up with “Private Number”. Who would be calling me at 4am?
“Hello?” I whispered.
“Hey pretty gir-“
“HARRY!” I screamed, and then started sobbing. “Harry I have missed you so much!”
“I know baby, I miss you too, but quiet down, we don’t want to wake your parents”. I swallowed the lump in my throat and went quiet; if I wake my parents I’ll be grounded. I hadn’t seen or heard from Harry for 2 months. Most nights I cried myself to sleep, wishing he would just call me, I knew it was difficult for him though, he was on tour with his band.
“Baby,” Harry whispered, “You still there?” A tear slid down my face, just hearing Harrys voice made me so happy.
“Mhmm” Was all I could manage. Harry and I had been together for about 4 months. It was only a short amount of time but already I was head over heels in love with him. Not that I would tell him that.
“Bec it has been so long since I’ve heard your voice, I need you to talk to me” Harry pleaded. Tears were flowing out of my eyes now, I sniffed and said “When are you coming home?”
“That’s why I was calling actually, I have some good news” I could hear the smile in Harrys voice.
“What is it-“I started to say but Harry cut me off.
“Walk out your front door and look up at moon, its beautiful tonight.” I was a little confused, but got out of bed anyway. My door always creaked, I quickly opened it hoping it would lessen the sound, it didn’t. I heard my mum stir, but then she continued to snore. I tip toed down the stairs, my feet were freezing, I should have put socks on. I unlocked the front door and walked out side, I looked up at the moon and gasped, it was one of the most beautiful things I had ever seen. Tonight the moon seemed to be bigger than ever and it had a special glow.
“Wow” I whispered, looking up at the moon “You’re right Haz, it is so beautiful.”
“I know it is” I heard Harry say. I looked up because his voice hadn’t come from out of my phone, and there he was leaning against my father’s car staring straight at me. My phone slipped out of hand and smashed on the ground. I ran over to him and jumped into his arms burying my head into the crook of his neck.
“Harry, Harry, Harry…” I sobbed. Harry held me so tightly spinning me around. My tears were soaking the neck of his shirt. Harry set me down taking my face into his hands staring into my eyes, wiping away my tears with his thumbs, I couldn’t take it anymore I stood up on my tippy toes wrapping my arms around his neck and kissed him. Kissed him like never before, biting gently on his bottom lip, I let his tongue slide against mine; I heard him moan just as his hands wandered down my back and held onto my waist pulling me in closer. We broke apart both panting but not letting go of one another, Harry buried his face into my neck so very lightly kissing me, I ran my hands through his curls, while he slid his hand under my singlet and up to my bra.
“Harry…” I moaned.
“You are so beautiful.” He whispered into my ear. I squeezed my eyes shut willing myself not to start crying again, but the tears escaped anyway, I clutched onto Harry tightly. A gust of wind hit us making me shiver.
“C’mon pretty girl, lets get out of here, you’re freezing.”
Harry opened the passenger side door for me, helping me in. He swiftly walked around to the driver’s side and jumped into the car. He started the car and backed out of my drive way, as we started to drive away I seen a light switch on in my house upstairs. Harry took hold of my hand and any thoughts of my parents being awake drifted from my mind. We drove for 2 hours straight, going no where in particular, Harry didn’t let go of my hand once. He had explained to me that their tour was cut short and they were aloud to come home early, I was the first person he wanted to see. We drove past a shabby looking motel.
“Its 6.30am lets just stay here at this Inn” Harry yawned.
“Okay” was all I said. The place looked pretty dodgy, but I didn’t care we were both exhausted. Harry parked the car, walked around to my side and opened the door, he was such a gentlemen.
We walked inside and rang the bell. A sleazy looking man who had greasy hair, greeted us with a “humph”.
“Urm, a room for two please” Harry asked.
The man didn’t even look at Harry; he was staring right at me. I started to feel uncomfortable, Harry coughed, getting the mans attention.
“Right this way…” The man said tilting his head towards the door leading us back outside, Harry took my hand as we climbed a set of stairs, and stopped at the top out the front of a room numbered 1.
“Here we are” said the man once again staring at me.
“Thank you” Harry said opening the door and pushing me protectively in front of him.
“Goodnight sweetheart” I heard the man say as Harry shut the door. The place was just as bad as I thought it would be. The windows were pretty dirty and it smelt strange.
“At least the bed is made” Harry said laughing, grabbing my waist and kissing my forehead. I took hold of his hands and pulled him over to the bed, he laid me down climbing on top of me. Harry looked down at me and kissed my nose. I laughed running my hand through his curls. With my hand on the back of his head I pulled slightly and he knew what I wanted, he kissed me softly at first, but it quickly got intimate. Harry slipped my singlet over my head. Rolling me over so I was straddling him, I quickly pulled his top off throwing it to the ground. I kissed him from the top of his chest down to top of his shorts; I could feel his hard on.
“Want to move this to the shower?” Harry whispered seductively.
He carried me from the bed to the bathroom, my legs wrapped around his waist, our lips did not part.
He shrugged out of his shorts and turned the hot water on. He pushed me up against the wall, his hand sliding up my thigh. I unclipped my bra throwing it over the shower wall.
“Mmm” Harry moaned as I kissed him. Then suddenly there was bang. I quickly looked at Harry alarmed.
“Wait here” He said firmly.
“No, Harry please don’t leave me.” I begged.
“I’m just checking that the door is locked, I’ll be back in a second, stay here.”
I watched Harry slowly open the bathroom door and walk out into the bedroom. My heart was beating so fast. And then I heard it. An ear splitting bang.
“HARRY!” I screamed running out of the bathroom. I saw Harry falling to the ground; I couldn’t comprehend what had happened. I looked up just as the gunman drops his gun and runs from the room, I couldn’t stop screaming, and tears were pouring down my face, “Harry!” I fell to the ground in front of him, putting my hand on the bullet wound.
“Pretty…girl..don’t..cry” Harry whispered, I could hear the pain in his voice.
“Shh baby, it’s alright, you’ll be alright” I sobbed, “What do I do?”
“Nothing, Bec, listen to me, you have to go-“
“NO! No Harry I am not leaving you” I screamed, my tears falling from my face onto his bare chest.
“Go please, before he comes back, do it for me” Harry said, closing his eyes.
“Harry open your eyes, stay with me baby, I’ll get you some help!” I whimpered. Harry doesn’t respond, I watch his chest rise and fall. I grab onto his hand, his pulse is weak, “Squeeze my hand Harry”.
“Harry, squeeze my hand!” I yell.
“Its too late, I have to go…” He barely whispers, tears falling from his emerald green eyes, “Lean down to me”. I put my ear close to his mouth.
“I love you…”.
“I love you too Harry” I cried, “Harry I love you, its you, forever.”
Harrys hand goes limp. His chest doesn’t rise again. I lay with him for a little while, humming one of his favorite songs “moments.”
“I’ll see you soon pretty boy”, I choke out, covering him with a blanket so he could have been sleeping.
I walk over to the gun and pick it up. I go and lay down next to harry, giving him one last kiss on his perfect lips, I lift the gun to my temple, “I’ll see you soon Harry.”

*I got the idea of this song from kisses-from-one-direction please don’t remove this link*
*sorry its so bad, its my first fanfic*